On Friday, The Bachelor alumna — who is expecting her second child with boyfriend Grayston Leonard — gave her followers an update on her pregnancy, and opened up about how she and Leonard are handling the news.
“12 weeks. ♥️ I can’t believe how fast this pregnancy is moving. I feel guilty talking about this, but this pregnancy is already night and day compared to our first,” the reality star, 24, wrote as she began her lengthy post.
Martinez went on to explain that her first pregnancy was “scary,” as she and Leonard had only been dating for two months at the time.
“I felt embarrassed and ashamed, and I imagined everyone around me whispering about how ‘irresponsible’ we were,” she continued. “Going through such a life-altering shift with someone you barely know is stressful, scary, and often filled with doubt.”
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